running for home

so i wasn't going to bring this up so early, but life never really works out the way you plan it.

starting tuesday, my boss and i are searching for my imminent replacement, to preferably start training and take over from me within the next two weeks. yeah, so much for the adult job.

the record label management job hasn't been easy, but it really hasn't been overly difficult either; it's more the fact that i've realized a number of things in the last three weeks: that i'm not exactly ready for the 9-to-5 lifestyle and responsibility; that i'm not entirely cut out for this position (and that i actually have no less than three friends who are, and who are currently clamoring for my job, and who all definitely deserve the opportunity far more than i do); that being music industry and being music press are very different things and, being a writer, i'm entirely meant to be press; and that i still really have no clue what the fuck to do with my life, but i already know it isn't this. i've spent the last couple weeks feeling chained down and suffocated by the idea of living in this professional world. not for me, dudes -- at least, not at this point in my life. not at twenty-three. not with so much else i want to see and do and experience before i settle down. call me immature if you want, but i prefer to think of it as not wanting to decide on my career or future until i've explored as many avenues as possible.

there is also the rather pressing detail that i just gave my landlord my two months' notice.

this is followed by the equally pressing detail that i just booked a one-way flight ticket to vancouver.

and so i have roughly a month to sell off and/or donate everything i own, because when my time comes to leave here, i'm grabbing a duffel bag of clothes and my laptop and i am fucking running for it. new city, new opportunities, new life, new beginning.

i'm doing it, kids. i'm really doing it.

and i've been so excited about this that i can't even express it in proper words.

[ music | modern english, "melt with you" ]